Heartbreak birthed my hearts break. The summer of 2014 through to 2015. I always knew I could write – what I didn’t know was that my words relied on my pain to be written. Being 15 & 16 at the time I learnt to escape the world through poetry. I learnt to dissect emotions through stanzas, breathe through every line and learnt acceptance with every rhyme. Writing gave me the break I never knew I needed.
Now this is almost laughable but post “heartbreak chronicles” I didn’t write for about 2 years. I was heavily inclined to the notion that the only time I could write anything substantial was when it came from a place of pain.
However, my girlfriends (two in particular) somehow willed me to write poems of gratuity which I literally named after them. [An ode to my support system coming soon]
And through these I learnt that words could not only express the present but could heal the past and keep you grateful for the people that weathered both by your side. And with that I moved onto the next writing phase of my life which was around the end of 2017.
In 2016-17 I met some incredible people that made me want to document all of our experiences. With one person in particular however I felt the need to write about our interactions and our journey. I experienced a delicacy of love I never knew existed in the form it was presented. It was abstract. It was bliss. It was it for me! Corny, I know but I’m a sucker for love so here we are. [An Ode to Bubba coming soon]
And so, I began to write ‘My Ace,’ the poem that somewhat set a new tone for my writing.
As a result of writing My Ace from a “happy heart posture” it gave me the confidence I needed to keep writing. Some pieces were bad, some were good, some incredible but most importantly none were crippled by my past inclination.
Fast forward to 2020 when I decided to finally put myself out there and created my blog ‘Sometimes She Writes.’ I named her this simply because sometimes I write. Genius right?
But for a little background - Due to my introduction to writing being through poetry I always knew I wanted to build on it and write more. Now if you know me personally then you know that I’m an incredibly private person so writing these entries was a huge step for me to let people in further. A step I am eternally grateful that I took.
There has been so much more to this journey but all in all my dream is that through me sharing my truth, my words can resonate with someone and hopefully inspire and promote hope (whatever that hope looks like to you).
The words on my pages,
Protected me
Nurtured and healed me
Held me
Saved me from myself
Brought me into myself
And love me as I love them.
I’ll write forever, that I know.
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