The Gift Of Mobility

Thank the sweet Lord baby Jesus for the gift of mobility.

On the 8th of January 2020 I was involved in a car accident that left me with Cocccydynia. Being able to write this even feels surreal! And I say “being able to” in reference to the fact that I can actually sit up (barely but doing it), open my laptop and write. I was never entirely grateful for the gift of mobility until every move I made physically hurt to get through. I injured mostly my lower abdomen, my neck and my back. My stomach and neck pain eased up after the first week but my back still feels like it’s in shambles. Which I’m also incredibly grateful for! I’ll get into this

10 days later and I call it – tailbone pain really Sucks! Car rides have never been so uncomfortable, sitting and getting up has never been such a task and pillows have never been so glorious to my behind. I literally have to sit on pillows everywhere I go because the pressure of hard surfaces feels like a blunt knife being lodged in my back. And by hard surfaces I mean even your ordinary plush car seat feels like concrete, plus don’t even get me started on church seats because wow, painful!

Before starting to write this, my aim was to make this a lyrical piece, a literary masterpiece of absolute gratuity for everyday miracles we often take for granted. I had put so much pressure on myself to write something phenomenal that I forgot about the magic of just writing for yourself. So here we are with my inhibitions gone and replaced with just a raw and honest rant about my experience so far. Speaking of raw, my lower back constantly feels like it’s on fire. Any hip movement, any time I place one foot ahead of the other, any time I lie down on my back or slightly to my side it’s all just very unpleasant.

Did you know that pain that restricts your movement makes you incredibly irritable? But then again that’s the thing about pain, “it demands to be felt.” I hate that about pain. However even when discomfort hugs me and the pain claims me it’s a reminder to consistently be grateful for the things we often overlook. So, here’s my ‘Attitude Gratitude list’.

- - I’m grateful for the gift of mobility. I’m grateful for the mundane action of walking. I’m grateful for the ability to sit (however uncomfortable it might be), I’m grateful for my behind that cushions my inflamed muscle, I’m grateful that this injury allowed me to take a break from the pressures I put on myself to always be on the move, I’m so grateful for my support system that has tirelessly worried and checked in on me, I’m grateful for the outlet of writing, I’m grateful for my sense of humour throughout this ordeal and I’m above all grateful for the gift of life more than anything!

I implore you if you’ve stumbled on this post and gotten this far to just take a minute and comment something you’re grateful for. Even if its being grateful for your favourite morning cereal, I’ll take it!

Sincerely,

Sometimes She Writes